Immersed in astray

I was struggling in my darkness, And he was trying to take my hand and pull me out of myself to relax a little and watch everything from the outside for a while… I was trying with all my heart to bring out a light from myself but nothing but darkness came out of me! I felt helpless with all my heart and there was no choice but to let go of the things I loved! I was immersed in something that I hated, Inevitably, I let go of his hand and I drowned in my delusion…